Chuck

I can’t remember a time in my life when you weren’t there. Since I was old enough to be aware, you’ve always been. You loved me as much as my brother did. Always had something silly to say, but when I needed advice, it was you I knew could turn to and I knew I you wouldn’t judge or say anything. 

Snowball fights in the front yard, throwing me in the leaf pile, chasing me with toads. Eating dinner with us, and when Mikey was gone, you had such glee because you got to “sit in Mikey’s chair”!! 

As I grew up, and you saw the choices I was making, like a big brother could, you took me aside. You never scolded, never preached, but you told me of the choices you made and what became of those consequences. Teaching by example. Trying to anyway.

You caught me and Jamie drinking. More than once. You took us to your house, made us something to eat and made us hang out, just so her daddy and my mama wouldn’t skin us. 

When “the boys” (your words) started coming around, you told me what they would say to get what they wanted. Nothing I hadn’t already heard from Mikey, but I can say I weighed your words differently. Which is not to say I listened, but I heard you. 

When things got rough at home, it was you I reached out to. So was Mike but I didn’t know that at the time. 

When I introduced you to Shannon, later you told me he was no good for me that I was “cute arm candy for him” and not to get serious because, as you said, Shannon was never gonna be serious about anyone but Shannon. Woo boy, you were right! You gave great advice I see now, but then, it went on one ear and came out the other. 

I can’t believe life led us in separate directions. How could I let that happen? And for so long? 
I can’t believe you’re gone. I hope you know that Froggles will always love Chuckles. 

Breathe

BreatheIn

Out

Be Still

Quiet

Please

Look at Me

Breathe 

In

Out

Touch Me

Here

And Hear 

My breathing is shallow

My pulse races

Feel 

Me

Tense

Relax

Breathe

In

Out

Taste Me

Your hands are 

Hot

Everywhere

See

My Reaction

You smile

Slower

Simmering Gaze

Feel

The warmth

Of my Arousal

I Feel

Very Warm

Hands moving as if I were 

An instrument 

To bring a beautiful melody

Accents and Crescendo

Rolling Waves

Look at Me

In your eyes

I see 

Pupils Dilated

I smile

I feel

Your heart beating

Just over mine

Deep breath

Align with me

Breathe with Me

Pick me up

Lay me Down

Your gaze locks with mine

Kiss me

Feed me

Slow down

We Breathe 

And

We Are

Letting Go

Of everything from Before

All that matters

Now

You

Me

Open me again

Please

Gently

Take Me

I’m yours

Moving Together

Two become One

Come

Here

Now

Again 

I feel

Urgency

Dependency

For what You Do

To Me

Tangled Limbs

Sweaty

Sticky

Like Cotton Candy

Please

Don’t

Stop

Now